Breaking away
Turn back the clock a few years to a time where I was fully engrossed in an evangelical church. I was a true believer in this time. I believed in the leadership and I was part of the worship team. However I was getting divorced, so I felt very lonely at this time. Of course this was only the beginning of a huge identity shift, but there was more coming around the corner.
Through some friends of mine, I was pointed to a website (a public one) and was privy to some upsetting financial news. I will never mention names, titles etc but this essentially was a whistleblowing situation. I pointed it out to other mentors and they made way too many concessions for what I found. What followed was a long and uncomfortable series of moments. Moments where I saw my faith grow up to the point of leaving the church behind entirely.
My time of breaking away was difficult. I was surrounded by doubt mostly, essentially in myself and all the things I trusted fell away. Here was where I found out more about myself than ever. I finally could realise who I was, it wasn’t defined by family, people, media, friends. Just me.
Its why when I coach anybody now, I slowly guide them down into this difficult space of self awareness. Everyone wants it, but its a process of transformation that’s brings a whole new level of understanding and a lot of questions as well. From there I learnt so much, not just to help myself but to help others.
So when you feel that time coming and its really scary, take the leap especially if you have people around you to guide you while its all happening. You won’t regret it.
Until next time, #embraceinfinity
