Chasing Your Tail

Last weekend I ended up dealing with a series of events, which ended up with me bruising my back. As always I ended up sulking and being impatient while I heal. However, the time also intersected with becoming part of a sober group and volunteering my time to help others through the process of recovery.

I ended up listening to other people’s stories, their journeys of becoming sober and how we’re all fallible and need each other to lean on. It was initially very nervous and vulnerable, even though I’m the one looked up to in this case.

However, the ice slowly thawed out and as we went through a variety of exercises I felt a lot more able (even with my injury bothering me) and that stretched me a lot. Throughout the week as I worked, I slowly recovered and started to do my ‘Morning Pages’ task.

The one thing I feel after a week of sitting things out is that my mind is a lot less frantic. Even with all the things going on in the world, I found more value in the silence and less in complaining about the situation I’m in. I’m still annoyed about certain things, but less so.

I am aware that life is rubbing us all the wrong way with sandpaper at the moment. I know that it feels like a never ending car wreck, but I know eventually it’ll stop and I don’t have to worry as much as before. Until then, keep your head down, stay safe and #embraceinfinity folks.

Aquila Hope is a transformative coach, black trans activist, speaker, podcaster and songwriter. They’re found through Instagram, Twitter, Medium and their own website. Their podcast ‘Grasp At The Root’ can be found on Anchor, Spotify, Google Podcast, Apple Podcasts or wherever podcasts are distributed. Aquila lives on the outskirts of Birmingham, enjoys self improvement, creating music, good coffee and pizza.